first things first

[wyciszone]

i really like doing things; some things i like more than others but boredom kills me a little bit

i also feel like it's necessary to be bored sometimes, but i really can't do that

my dad told me to have a part-time internship during the academic year. i study two majors in college and feel like i should push myself more and more and more

i went to work at an event. after two days my head hurts a lot. i've been pushing myself more and more and more; sometimes i feel like i can't push myself any more; sometimes i feel like i should just lay down and cry; sometimes i think punching a wall could bring me a tiniest bit of peace

sometimes i want to do things but it's too much, and everything hurts, and people are there and i just hate it all

my dad told me to have the life of an adult; work a nine to five job, cook healthy meals, go for runs in the mornings and stop being all over the place

but it's too much and my head hurts